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I miss J.A.R. Being with Alexa & not even knowing wsup in her life, shit that makes me feel hella bad & then having to recap with everything. If only J.A.R. was there first hand. The good ol' days. Three way calling & choppin it up for hours. Now its just whenever online- myspace/xanga/aim. ANYTHING. I'd give anything to have a close relationship with them again. I know whenever we kick it iss all good tho, like nothings changed between us, like distance didnt split us apart. But it doesnt matter I still consider them as my bestfriends. Ive known both of them for +5 years already & that ain't going to waste. Sometimes we'd become close then theres that time gaps when we don't talk to each other & please believe im tired of it. I want to regain the closeness & everything else. Yeah we may not understand whats goin on in eachothers life but, we'll make eachother understand no matter how long it takes. To Jonina's blog- I hope thats not what it is. I didnt give up, i just became busy & so did you. We all did. But that doesnt mean its an excuse. No one can replace any of you well to me you cant. We still need each other in ways that some people won't understand. You can never forget or replace friends like the both of you. So lets just all try a little harder. I know I am. I loooove you guys ;]
MYRON-
I never knew a love like this. Gotta be SOMETHING for me to write this.
I know we did so many wrong things in our relationship & thats what caused it to end, but don't let all the good & happy times we've had be forgotten. You may thing you not the first in anything & you may not feel special but theres so many things.. so many things, so you can't say you ain't special because babe you are. You may not believe me, but you truly are my first true love. Im sooo serious ;] I know I've lied & hid things from you, or I wasn't as open because that fact is that I couldn't believe it myself. So I kept that in. Don't think im just telling you this because I need you back. Im just letting you know. For me to fall in love & to just have you in my life was just crazy & unbelievable enough. You are the first boy I've ever cried over because I heard the sound of your voice. I've never had a constant longing for someone as I have for you . You were the first person I just had to see when I came back from Vegas. Im not trying to lose you again, im incomplete without you. I simply can't function without my BESTFRIEND.
What solution would fit our problem? Its not just what I need or what you want to do.. it should be about what we want for US. But your probably thinking, "Why should you & I even want to be with each other anymore?" Yeah I ain't finna lie to you.. it won't work out as quickly as we want it to. We'd have to work at it annually. But that means you would have to be all in it & I will also. Because Im not trying to have our love die. But of course no matter how many problems we have, we'd want to still be with each other because we grew a great love for each other & that shouldn't be wasted & please believe I won't let it. So I don't want to give up on us , I mean, I won't leave you because my love for you really got me. No matter how much hurt I feel.. I still can't see it. I won't let it. Mentally I know I still got you but I thought our love was enough to hold us together through the problems, because I already lost you physically. & Im speaking from my heart, I just want you to know that it ain't just yo body im in love with your soul.
Now you know how I feel. Everythings on YOU. If you still don't care, you still don't know what to do or you still have to actually think about being with me then I don't know if I can wait, because its still hurting me. You can't blame me, because all I want to do is be with you. I don't understand how you can ask me to wait for you when your going out with another female. You should be asking me to wait because your not ready or needs time before being in a relationship again. But NOT because you want to be with another girl. Thats just having me waiting for something to go wrong in your new relationship. So if your going to move on for good & leave me.. then do it already. You know me.. I got that LOVE for you. That love is me. IM that special someone that sticks around with you until you realize that you love me back and if you don't I'm still there waiting for the day you'll realize that NO ONE else can love you in that way... But don't lead me on thinking you actually finna come back when actually, your not planning to. But I'll be waiting for that moment to come again.
I love you soulmate.
Stick with you like peanutbutter do.
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